KEEP YOUR FEELINGS TO YOURSELF

What will be the reason for a man to cheat on his dear girlfriend or wife? I do not think any reason will be tangible enough to vindicate him of all offence. Many times I thought it was ok to cheat, until she tried to play the same card.

It was three days after Christmas, I sat in the hall entertaining myself with some movies. Minutes later I received a message from my girlfriend telling me to prepare myself since she was on her way to my place. I did not get the meaning of the text as we never planned a date. I thought it would be okay since my parents were out for a vacation, and her company will mean a lot to my siblings who have been wanting to meet her for a long time. To make it a surprise to them, I decided to hide the news until her arrival. I walked to the bathhouse to enjoy my cold bath and then dressed into my new pair of jeans and a white top since she enjoyed seeing me in white. It was minutes after my dressing that my siblings had suspicions of my behaviour. To cool them off, I told them it was a new ritual I developed in school to be expectant of good things. It may sound lame but they bought it (that makes them worse right?). I received the message at half past 1, its 3pm and she is still not in. I was thinking traffic was the problem until I received a call at 5pm from a friend to report seeing her at the house of one gentleman. Thoughts and questions began to run into my head: what exactly are they doing? Is she in his room? Are they sharing his bed? Are they alone? Who is he? and many others. I then asked for the direction to the house and headed straight for her. As I sat in the moving taxi, there was a particular question I was asking myself, “what if it happened, what will you do?” It was then that I decided to head back home and pretend as if it never happened. Getting out of the taxi, I met her standing right in front of my gate with a big smile on her face. Having settled the driver, she walked towards me and asked, “How did you feel?” As she stood waiting for an answer, all I could say was, “I don’t know”. Even though I was able to surprise my siblings with my introduction of her as my ‘girlfriend’, the question got me thinking all night. It was then I realized the meaning of my father’s favourite quote, “You will never feel what I feel until you change places with me. Until then, keep your feelings to yourself”.

I guess the last words of the quote got to be my final lesson.